“You can’t keep the birds of sadness from flying over your head, but you can keep them from nesting in your hair” (Sharon Creech, Walk Two Moons). Bat the birds of sadness away with a bat if you have to. Expel them with the flood of endorphins that comes from lifting weights until your legs shake. Get outside when you feel lacking in energy and motivation. And give yourself credit for all you’re doing to chase those birds of sadness away.
My mom always told me to read my Bible when I’m sad, but now I’m actually doing it. “Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts” (Psalm 139:23). Right before I fall asleep I tell Him, thank you for all you’ve done to heal my heart so far. Please continue to heal it.
The pessimist in me can easily be negative these days, if not for a sermon I found online through one of the blogs I read. Daniel and his three friends trusted God even when King Nebechadnezzar cranked up the heat on the fire he put them in. Our trust in God and faith in Him and His ways should not depend on our outward environment or how we feel that day. This week’s mantra is: I trust you. You’re God and you know what you’re doing.
Mind you there are pros to this whole breakup/heartbreak thing. And the list keeps growing.
- Grief is the best diet I’ve ever experienced. And yes, I can call it grief because I lost someone who was part of my life for over a year.
- I’m discovering just how strong I am. Life lately is me working hard to bat those birds of sadness away and succeeding.
- I’m experiencing the power of God’s grace that was only a theory to me before. The Bible is full of God’s promises to us and all the things He wants to be to us. Sometimes it takes the rough times and being brought to our end for “our Father’s full giving to begin” (rough paraphrase from the song, “He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater.)
- All the possibilities in life. I was kinda sticking around in Chicago for my former boyfriend. But now I can get the heck out of town! My career can go in any direction and I’m not limited by the jobs here. It’s been awhile, but I can be open to new guys and freely flirt again.
There’s more, but it’s time for me to collect my belongings and hit the road for Indiana this weekend!